Thanks

Wizard of Oz: A heart is not judged by how much you love; but by how much you are loved by others.

I just want to thank all of my family and friends who took time out of their busy schedule to drop me a message/text yesterday.

It was a tough day. I decided to take a road trip to Port Aransas and gather my thoughts.

I was thinking how alone I was, but after seeing that there are people that do care, I need to refocus my attention.

It only takes a minute to bring a smile to someone and let them know you are thinking of them. It doesn’t matter if they are close or far. Someone you talk to on a regular basis or someone who you haven’t seen in years.

There is a reason they are friends and distance and time should not matter.

So, I’m going to try my hardest to focus on the people that I care about and who care about me. Life is too short to worry about things that are out of my control.

Thanks again family and friends. You touched my heart.

Side Note: To Gary and Teri, the couple I met at the restaurant, it was nice meeting you. I hope you do look me up when you are in San Antonio.

Amazing, how total strangers managed to make me smile today. They just took the time to turn around and say hello and tried to steal my Texas Boil! 😉Sometimes, it’s  the simplest of things, it made my afternoon.

731 Days

Sometimes I just want someone to hug me and say, “I know it’s hard. You’re going to be okay.

731 Days

That is how many days it’s been from Thursday, August 28th, 2014 to Sunday, August 28th, 2016 since my brother, Joe died.

It’s hard to believe it’s been two years already. Sometimes it feels like a lifetime ago that it happened and other times it feels like it just happened.
Joe was your typical little, pain in the ass brother! Oh, how he could press my buttons and set me off. We could give each other the silent treatment like nobody’s business. Then there were those times where we would be the best of friends.

We would quote movie lines back to each other. Or text each other, while being in the same room.

Joe had a strange and weird sense of humor. Either you got it and thought it was funny or you didn’t get it.

I still have the texts that we sent each other the morning that he died. I so afraid of losing them, that I have them saved on a couple of Clouds and SD cards. I haven’t brought myself to read them. I don’t know when I will be able to read them without being crashed that Joe is gone.
His Facebook page is still open, I haven’t been able to close the account. Once in a while I like going on there and reading the nice posts from his friends who say that they miss him and his sense of humor.

The first six months after his death, I was gun-ho on cleaning out his room and getting stuff organized. Now, at the two-year mark, I haven’t been able to go through his stuff. Not sure when I will be able to go in there and take care of it?

Peanut Butter, you wonder why peanut butter would make me think of Joe? For the past two years, we have had the same peanut butter jars in the cabinet when Joe died. Joe ate a huge spoonful of peanut butter every night. We went through a lot of peanut butter when he was alive.

One of the last meals that Joe ate was spaghetti that I made. He even made a comment on how good it was. To this day, I have a very hard time making spaghetti.

I remember Joe when I see something funny on TV. My first reaction is to text Joe or let him know that I saw something funny. He would be thrilled that the “Glimore Girls” is coming back.

This past week leading up to today have been very hard. My emotions have been all over the place. A little bit of me is still mad as hell that Joe left me and there is a little bit that still in denial that he is gone. I swear if I gave in to them, I could cry all day or want to punch someone/something.

I wish that I could snap my fingers and everything would be back to normal. But I know that won’t happen. I have to believe that Joe is with our Mom and both are pain free and together and having a blast together.

Once is a while, I feel that he (and my Mom) are watching over me.

Like when I drive into work, sometimes I see two Cardinals flying across the road. Cardinals are supposed to mean that angels are near. 

Or whenever I hear “Free Bird” by Lynyrd Skynyrd. Joe had this weird connection to that song. He always requested that our nephew play that song on his trombone. So whenever I hear it, I think it’s Joe letting me know he’s there.  Even Brad, our nephew, has experienced hearing that song while he was doing something to the truck he drives, which was Joe’s truck.

So today, I will try to remember all the good times and all the laughs we had

Until we meet again, brother. I miss you.

“Cryin’ for Me (Wayman’s Song)” is a song written and recorded by American country music artist Toby Keith. Keith wrote this song as a tribute to his friend and fellow Oklahoman Wayman Tisdale, a basketball player and jazz musician, who passed away in on Friday 15th May 2009.

Things I Want… Compass Necklace

 I have wanted a compass necklace for a while now. I watched a movie where someone had a compass necklace. 

Susan Sarandon’s character Reggie Love in the movie, “The Client”, had a checkered past and lost custody of her children. Reggie wore a compass pendant so she would not “lose her way” again.

That has always stuck with me. There have been many times when I felt that I have lost my way.

Recently, I have felt even more lost on where what I’m doing. Maybe I need something like this to help me find my way. 

Words To Live By

I swear, someone is watching over me. Now I just need to listen. 

This goes to family, friends and anyone in my life. 

Happy Birthday, Bradley James Keesler

Today is my nephew, Bradley James Keesler’s birthday. He turns 29 years old today.

From the very moment that my sister, Cynthia told me she was pregnant, I have loved this kid! Not a day goes by that I don’t count my blessings that I have this person in my life.

He has grown into a wonderful young man. I cannot wait to see what she does with the rest of his life. The sky is the limit on what he can do.

So I want to thank my sister and my brother-in-law for raising such a good person and to my niece who has been a part of his growing to be the man he has become.

I love you, Brad more than words can say. I know that you have special people watching over you and blessing you along your way.

Brad Keesler in Rome

Happy birthday and I love you.

Words to Live By

I have said and posted over and over again, that when something in going on in my life, that has my mind spinning and spinning, a quote or a saying magically appears for me to read. 

Well, it happened again this weekend.

I’m fine during the week, when I have other things to distract Me. But on the weekends, ¡Aye, dios mio!, I just start thinking about things and I feel out of control. 

So when I saw this, I thought to myself, I need to live by some of these and remember them when I’m feeling out of control. 

I’m praying that #4, #7 and #12 come my way soon. 

Song Played Over and Over

Do you ever get in those moods to listen to a song over and over again?

Well, the other day at work, I was in that kind of mood. I must of played it over 25 times.

The song that I kept playing over and over was, “Love Never Felt So Good” by Michael Jackson and Justin Timberlake.

 

 

The song, reworked from a 1983 demo track originally composed by Jackson and Canadian singer-songwriter Paul Anka, was the first single released from Jackson’s second posthumous album, Xscape. Two versions of the single were developed. The first was a solo produced by American record producer John McClain and Dutch record producer Giorgio Tuinfort. The second version was a duet featuring American singer Justin Timberlake, produced by American record producers Timbaland and Jerome “J-Roc” Harmon, which received positive reviews from music critics. Its accompanying music video premiered on May 14, 2014 on The Ellen DeGeneres Show. In it, Timberlake appears with a crowd of young dancers, who reference Jackson’s most known dance moves, interspersed with archival footage of the late pop singer’s many short films. The song is the second collaboration between Jackson and Anka to be released since Jackson’s death in 2009 — the first being “This Is It“. (From Wikipedia.com)

Yes, that Paul Anka, who knew?

In case you want to sing to the song like I did all day. Here you go.

“Love Never Felt So Good”

Baby, love never felt so good
And I doubt if it ever could
Not like you hold me, hold me
Oh baby, love never felt so fine
And I doubt if it’s never mine
Not like you hold me, hold me
And the night is gonna be just fine
Gotta fly, gotta see, can’t believe
I can’t take it

‘Cause baby, every time I love you
It’s in and out of my life, in out baby
Tell me, if you really love me
It’s in and out of my life, in out baby
‘Cause baby, love never felt so good

Baby, love never felt so fine
And I’d doubt if it was ever mine
Not like you hold me, hold me
Oh baby, love never felt so good
And I doubt if it ever could
Not like you hold me, hold me
And the night is gonna be just fine
Gotta fly, gotta see, can’t believe
I can’t take it cause

Baby, every time I love you
In and out of my life, in out baby
Tell me, if you really love me
It’s in and out of my life, driving me crazy
Baby, love never felt so good

Baby, love never felt so fine
And I’d doubt it was mine all mine
Not like you hold me, hold me
Oh baby, love never felt so good
And I doubt if it ever could
Not like you hold me, hold me
And the night is gonna be just fine
Gotta fly, gotta see, can’t believe
I can’t take it cause

Baby, every time I love you
In and out of my life, in out baby
Tell me, if you really love me
It’s in and out of my life, driving me crazy
Baby, love never felt so good

Songwriters
Michael Jackson and Paul Anka

Read more: Michael Jackson – Love Never Felt So Good Lyrics | MetroLyrics

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